With a week to go until the TCS NYC Marathon, it’s normal to be full of emotions. Most of mine are having to do with worry. Not so much worry about running the race itself (although that is in there somewhere), but more-so about my plans and money while I am in New York.
It’s been a rough year for me, and this trip, running the NYC Marathon is the one thing I’ve looked forward to through all of the hard times. It’s kept me on track, looking ahead at what I considered a light at the end of the tunnel. Unfortunately, I’ve had some unplanned financial issues come up the last few weeks, which leave me nervous about going on a trip at all.
On the positive side, I’ve got my plane ticket paid for, and my amazing 261 Fearless team is taking care of us in many ways while we are in NYC. But, I’m nervous about the fact that I’m arriving in New York so close to the cuff, with barely enough to cover hotel and such while I’m there.
I’ve spent the day worrying, being depressed about the situation. That said, I can’t let that stand. Worry is not only unhealthy, but it’s not from above. God knows my struggles, and I know He will take care of me. So, I’m working on turning the worry over to God. He knows what tomorrow brings, and worrying about it does nothing good. I’m blessed in many ways, and I need to remember that. I will turn my worries into prayers.