Reverb 10 – December 10th

December 10. Wisdom.
Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?
(Author: Susannah Conway)

You know, this was a difficult prompt for me to respond to. I guess you either know right out the door your response to this one or you really have to step back and consider your year from start until today. I had to do the latter of the two.

That said, the only thing that really stood out to me was giving up running. The only reason I say this is because if I had not come to the sad realization that giving up running was in my best interest health-wise, I could do myself more harm and pain.

Don’t get me wrong, giving up running has been one of the hardest things for me to do since I had to leave North Carolina due to my lay off in 2008. I fell deeply in love with the sport of running in the short time I took it on. Running and I were developing a love/hate sort of relationship between the end of 2009 and the first few months of 2010. I struggled to take on the challenge of the C25k training program and was immensely proud of myself for doing so.

So, learning this past April that I had herniated my back was heartbreaking. My doctor told me right out of the gate that my running days were over. It took me about two months to completely accept that she was right. Even when I was going through all the pain and discomfort that my injury brought on, I wasn’t willing to admit to myself that it was over. I remember it being a very emotional time for me. I will say however, that while I have accepted that I’m no longer a runner at this time, I still retain hope that someone might one day come up with a surgery that is a definite fix for my injury.

There you have it, the wisest, or at least one of the wisest decisions I made in 2010. A tough one, and one that I find myself thinking about almost daily. It goes to show that sometimes the wisest and smartest decisions in life are the roughest ones. I believe though, that everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t understand that reason for a very long time (or maybe ever).

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