I have a confession to make: I’m struggling. Yup, after maintaining my weight loss for over 3 years, I feel like I’ve hit a bump in the road. I feel as though mentally I’m in a funk. I don’t know if it’s partly due to my thyroid and hormone issues or not, but jeez it’s driving me crazy. I feel kind of like I am in a fog and while I WANT to be doing good, I feel as though I’m stuck.
Since training for my marathon, I’ve gained about 5lbs and that is definitely a major part of my upset. Don’t get me wrong, I know deep down that it’s not impossible to deal with that kind of gain, but emotionally, that “fat girl” keeps dangling a carrot in front of my face (in this case, it’s extra hunger in the form of carby foods, I mean a carrot would be A-ok, right?). I feel hungry when I know I’ve eaten a couple of hours before and it just didn’t used to be like that. Maybe it’s the desk job, I don’t know. I don’t want to throw excuses out there because no matter what it is, I need to get back to my “happy place.”
So, I’m calling this state of my life THE FUNK. Because honestly, that’s how I feel right now, in a funk. I’m tired and unsure where to go from here. Oddly enough, I’m still working out regularly. I go to my runs 3x a week and to the gym at least 2 other days. I don’t feel as though I’m eating more than a couple hundred calories more than I was eating, but for some reason, the result is not positive. Also, this hormone imbalance crud has made me break out with horrible acne. That alone makes me want to hibernate in the house and not show my face.
I’m only posting this here to be honest and in hopes that maybe some of you can offer some advice for getting me out of my funk. Thanks for listening, I appreciate everyone who reads this blog. 🙂