The month of February has not exactly gone the way I would have imagined. It’s actually been one of the most trying month’s I’ve had in quite awhile. Lot of tough times that I’ve had to channel my faith and strength to push through. I suppose we need the hard times in order to fully appreciate the good times, but, that doesn’t mean I have to like the balance. LOL.
Last week was especially tough for me. I almost wrote a blog post about it, but didn’t want to appear to be complaining. I know, it’s my blog and I write my posts with honesty and from the heart, but sometimes I feel that maybe too much of that kind of posting doesn’t help anyone. Including myself. While writing helps me a lot of times get through things, and I thank God for the ability to be able to write; there’s a point when even the most extroverted person who loves to talk just needs some alone time. Time to curl up on her bed and just relax out to some mindless television or what have you.
After the funeral for a family friend, and the sudden passing of my mom’s bird and family feathered friend, I got very depressed. It hit on Monday after I was back into my usual schedule of things, working and away from my family. I think being with them for almost three days was a big comfort for me. My family may have our issues, but there’s always something comforting about being surrounded by them. So, I found myself extremely tired and just lacking motivation to do much of anything. A very meh, whatever sort of feeling.
I don’t go into a serious depression these days where I think about hurting myself or anything like that, but what happens is that I go through a huge dip. All I want is to hibernate in my bedroom and shut out the world outside. This usually happy, chatty girl becomes blue and not interested in speaking to anyone. The problem is, I really couldn’t do that. I had to work because I have responsibilities, bills to pay and all that. Makes it hard when you are dealing with mental health issues and you have to find the strength to get out of bed and get it done.
I then dealt with a 24 hour stomach bug last Thursday and Friday. Fortunately, I was able to run on Thursday morning, as it hit late morning, but it was another fun obstacle to deal with. Because I still was a bit unsure on my stomach, I ended up skipping my Saturday run. I NEVER miss a Saturday run (unless I have a race that weekend, or am sick), so that was fun. Thankfully, I felt okay when I did get up to get ready to go out to volunteer at Jeff Galloway’s booth at the Disney Princess expo.
Volunteering at the Princess expo was just what I needed. It was a lot of fun and I got to talk to a lot of fellow runners. Some even about to run their first half marathon the next morning. How exciting! It was a good time spent with fellow runners as well as Barbara and Jeff Galloway. After my shift at the expo, I headed out to visit my parents in Kissimmee for a bit.
My mom’s new adopted guinea pigs have begun to take my heart. Of course, I’m an animal lover already, but holding and cuddling the sweeties is relaxing and makes you smile. Animals are so therapeutic. I hope we are that for them as well when we give them our love.
Waking up yesterday, I decided that I was not going to let any negativity win or even slightly get the best of me this week. I’m going to keep my head up, even if and when the water begins to rise. I’m looking forward to my friends from Asheville coming to visit later this week! I’m running the SuperHero 5k fun run here in Orlando with her on Saturday and I’m excited about that. This week is going to be a good one! Positive thoughts make positive outcomes! 🙂