It’s the week of Christmas, and right now, I’m not feeling oh so Christmasy. The last few weeks have been a mix of ups and downs. This time of year is like that for me. One minute I’m happy, then the next, not so much. I suppose having depression and anxiety might contribute to this, but I don’t know. Either way, it can make the season more difficult for me.
When I was younger, my family used to all get together (grandparents, uncles, aunts, and all), but as the years have gone on, get togethers have pretty much ceased. I love seeing my family (besides my parents and brother which I see often), but we just don’t visit one another like we used to. Maybe it has to do with losing some of my family…it definitely began to change after my grandfather passed away in 1995. Looking back, I suppose that was sort of the beginning of the visits dwindling. Then, when my Aunt Mary passed in 2007, that was another hardship that changed the family. While the losses did bring us all together, sadly, it didn’t last long. I do miss those Christmas family gatherings, as a lot of memories stick out in my mind from those times. We had some good times filled with laughs.
Then, there’s the loss of a very special member of my family, Mocha the Congo African Grey. She was such a beloved parrot and she is extremely missed. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about her and miss her. She was sick during the holidays in 2011 and she passed on January 5, 2012. The holidays since then always make thoughts of Mocha more prominent. I still remember the kisses she last gave us the night before she left us.
All the sad memories aside, this time of year isn’t about buying presents, or even getting them. It’s about the birth of Jesus. God sent his one and only son down to Earth to save us. This was the best gift any of us could ever be given. Christmas is also about love, peace and joy of giving from the heart.
While this time of year may have it’s tough moments, I’m praying that I can keep the true meaning of Christmas at the forefront of my mind this week. Jesus is the reason for the season.