I’ve learned I’m the toughest critic of myself. I push myself to do things, and have a hard time accepting when my body decides that I’m pushing too much.
Since the NYC Marathon, and even before that in the weeks leading up to the race, my body was trying to tell me something. It even went so far as to cause me to go to the ER in the days before the marathon (though, it was thankfully nothing serious).
My body needs more rest. I need to find a better balance in doing this running thing that I love so much. With my Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, my body can’t handle as much exertion anymore. It takes way too long for me to recover from a hard workout, and I am tired all the time.
This has led me to make a hard decision, I am done with marathons. At least for the foreseeable future. It’s kind of hard to say ‘never again,’ but the likeliness of another is very small. I’m going to stick with half marathons, 15k, 10k and 5k race distances. NYC Marathon was 40 days ago and I have yet to feel completely recovered from it.
Sure, it takes 26 days to truly recover from the 26.2 distance, and running a half marathon 3 weeks after didn’t help matters, but nonetheless I shouldn’t feel this low energy. In 2015, I ran the NYC Marathon and then did the Space Coast Half three weeks later and didn’t feel this drained. In fact, I felt pretty good that year.
I have always had a hard time truly resting since I started running. I like to keep going and when you’ve got issues like an under-active thyroid, that’s not always a good thing. The disease and I have had an ongoing battle since I was diagnosed, and I’m not letting it “win,” but I am also not going to not listen and take care of myself.
It’s time I take things down a notch and focus on my overall health. 2018 has to be the year that I take care of me and just enjoy running more. Not that I don’t still enjoy it, but I’m going to stop caring about pushing myself to do a better time in races, go out there and just run. I’m not fast to begin with, but I’m not going to go out and try to finish in a certain time anymore. Unless I’m pacing, and I will keep that to a time that I know my body is comfortable doing.
I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished thus far in my running, I’ve done some really great things. Six marathons may just be where this runner girl stands for that distance. And, I’m good with that. Heck, I never thought I’d run one marathon, let alone six!
So, the theme, if I have one for 2018 is going to be balance. I want that to start with my health and fitness and continue throughout the other areas of my life. I look forward to working on my goals the rest of this month and putting them into action in the new year.