Have you ever had that nagging feeling that you have something to do? I’m not talking about taking out the trash, or paying a bill. No, this is more than that. A feeling that you’re not living up to your purpose or missing something in.your life. That’s kind of how I’ve been feeling today. Almost as if I’m lost somehow.
I fully believe that God puts each and every one of us here on Earth with a purpose. We aren’t here by chance, it’s planned. We have free will to choose our paths in life, but God tries to lead us along the way.
I feel as though I’ve been blessed in many ways throughout my life thus far. I grew up with a roof over my head at all times, never had to worry about where my next meal might come from, and had two loving parents who were always there for me. Nothing is ever perfect or ideal, but I had the things I needed.
Despite having those things, I have gone through times where I felt I was lost or alone. I am coming to believe that maybe, just maybe that’s God’s way of tugging at my heart strings. He may be standing right there saying, “hey, you need to listen and not just with your ears.”
So, with that belief in mind, I’m feeling as though I’m not doing something I should be doing. The last 3 years have been filled with.many changes for me. I went from an overweight geeky girl to a thinner, athletic one. That one change, choosing to lose weight and get healthy has forever impacted my life.
I’m sure that God knew all about the big changes that my decision in late 2008 would bring. I have no question that He knew. It amazes me how one life change cannonballs into more change. I never envisioned my life would be heading in the direction that it is. If you would have told me that I would run and love it five years ago, that would have me laughing. I had trouble walking fast with my Aunt in NYC, and running was the furthest thing from my mind. I mean, who runs for fun? It’s still crazy to me sometimes, but normal is overrated.
I’ve been evaluating the what, where and when of my life and future. I used to think I knew where I’d be and what I’d be doing and when. But, honestly, I have not the slightest clue. I am doing my best to be open to what life brings my way and to what God wants me to do and be. I have passions of course, I still love writing and photography. Those two things are and always have been high on my favorite things to do list. On one hand, I’d love to just do those two things in some way. On the other hand, I want to do something with fitness and health. So, maybe an opportunity doing all of the above will come my way. Wouldn’t that be just amazing, doing just what you love to do all the time? I think it sounds awesome.
What about you, have you been thinking about your future? Or, are you doing the thing(s) that you most love doing? Are you still learning what your purpose might be?