It’s quite interesting what a year can do. I say this after going to my favorite mountain town last week for vacation and after being back home in Orlando for three days. I find that I see my life and where it is leading me in a whole new way right now. Let me explain…
In 2008, I moved to Western North Carolina. By year’s end, I was forced to come back to Florida and move back in with my parents. Ever since then, I really felt a yearning to go back to Asheville and live there again. That is, until now. I still love the mountain town and all that it has to offer (not to mention all the great friends I’ve made there), but I now feel that Orlando is home. For the first time in a long time, I was glad to re-enter the Sunshine State on Friday. This crazy state has begun to won me over…after living here for most of my life. Silly isn’t it?
I think that it has to do with two things. One, I moved back out of my parents house just over a year ago and into Orlando in College Park. Secondly, I have started to embrace where I am. By that I mean that I am learning to love where I am living. I never thought that way about Florida, at least since I graduated from high school or was in my first year or so of college anyway.
My visit to Asheville this time around was great as always, but I didn’t feel that urging to want to move there immediately like I had been prior. I was kind of seeing the city as more of a frequent tourist, or someone visiting their family on vacation. It was oddly freeing. I felt a lot more relaxed by that feeling. Relaxing is just what we all need on a vacation and that was so nice. Asheville is still a place that I’d like to one day live and be with my family, but I’m okay with waiting. It’s really not up to me anyway, it’s up to God. I really believe that He will let me know when the time is right to re-root myself in the mountains.
One of tobyMac’s recent songs has really resonated with me on this area of my life, Me Without You. I’d be packin’ my bags when I need to stay. I’d be chasin’ every breeze that blows my way. I’d be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away.